Two Weeks Left: Separation Anxiety

Here I am. With just two weeks left in Ecuador. I know it' silly for me to say this, but I'm crying right now just thinking about it. And I know that it all is what it is, and I knew when I landed I only had four months, but as the date approaches I can't help but feel heartbreak.

I know that I'm sensitive, I know that I'm emotional. But, I also know that in two weeks I will leave a life that I created for myself here, or really this life that just happened that is now so much a part of me. My life started in Ukraine, and by the time that period of my life was over I couldn't remember all that much of it. Every since then, even though I've transitioned from middle school to high school to college, I've always been in Boston, and transitioning from one of these institutions to another with a big group of people going through the same thing. I entered the world of South America with twenty three people by my side. Even though others have taken on this program before, and many more will, no one will ever understand exactly what the twenty four of us went through. It's not to say anyone else with have a better or worse experience, but it won't be ours.

So, basically, I have never had to leave a whole way of life in this way before. My family that I have seen everyday since I landed, my friends and everyone I've met, my school, my block, my view of the city, my bus route, my places to eat, my casa, my room, my keys, my streets. I don't even know half of Quito, but I feel like it will always be my city, like Lvov or Boston. It will always be a part of me.

I'll miss my family here more than they know. They've been nothing but amazing to me. They've listened to me, and I've listened to them. I just want them to know how much I love them.

Anyway, I know that the time has come and I have a whole new adventure waiting for me in Spain, but right now...let's just say I'm having serious separation anxiety.